Friday, February 27, 2009
i'm feeling very fustrated right now.
It's a combination of a few things with dance being a large stress trigger. Auditions. As my fellow dancers know, this a HUGE audition season. There are dancers left and right fighting their way to make past all the cuts to have a chance at getting a contract. Sadly, many companies are laying off dancers and holding auditions as a means of collecting much needed money. Not only are dancers going to these auditions and paying money for the class,they are also getting cut after barre. This leaves them feeling fustrated AND down $15-25 WITHOUT even a full class.
That is the scenario i have playing in my head before i go to an audition. I was going to go to one in nyc on sat. , but decided not to because i know it will be a cattle call of people and i will spend money that i can't afford. I know that's not a good mindset, but with the way the economy is effecting the arts i feel like i just need to be more aware of what companies are hiring and ones that just need money.
I haven't given up completely on auditioning for companies. I feel a little discouraged with myself and the way things are. I talked to a friend earlier tonight in a similar position. She seems to have a more positive outlook than i do so it really helped to hear her speak about her 'plan of attack' into auditions. She is so motivated and makes connections that are valuable and help her to get to the people that will help you make your way. I wish i had the know how to do that more. It was good to speak with her and hear her advice. She is right. Sometimes it's the people you know and the impression you leave on them that can help you land a gig. It's nice to be able to talk to someone who knows excactly how you feel -your struggles and fustrations- about the dance world. I gotta get my butt out there and be seen, that's all there is to it! I need to make my mark, my connections, now!