Hi!

RIP...laptop.
So, i haven't posted in a bit because my HP laptop decided to stop turning the screen on for no reason. I'm really upset because it is only about 2yrs old and i have done nothing to prompt this malfunction. So fustrating...

ANYway, things have been wonderful. My booba took me on a suprise vacation to the fingerlake ny. He said we needed to celebrate 7yrs properly and wanted to get away somewhere special. It really was amazing and i could go into details, but i will spare you. Instead, i will sum it up: slept in a real old train caboose as a hotel, swam in a huge lake, drank a lot...a LOT.. of great wines, ate amazing food, and had a wonderful time with my best friend ever :)

We are now a week away from the beginning of the season...yikkkkkkkeeeees. Im ready to get back into the routine but this also leaves me about a week to get semi in shape. We have company headshots/bodyshots the day before we start so i have to look in shape and not like i just went on vacation. Should be interesting.

The new apprentices have been slowly arriving to the studio and i can't help but feel the pressure of pushing myself. Dancers tend to judge themselves and everyone else. It's sad, but we have this drive to stay on top of our game. I think i feel the pressure the most because i have been there so long and i am a company memeber. Some of these newbies are younger and better than me. I have this feeling sometimes that they will look at me and say ' how did SHE make it into the compamy '. It's hard for me to get that thought out of my head and I wish that i could just accept me and my dancing for what it is. Time for some positive energry. Maybe i need some yoga because we start? :)

Anyway, i'll leave you with some photos from the trip. My booba and i are thinking about starting a blog called "Ballet Everywhere" . Everytime we go somewhere or on vacation i always have to take my 'ballet shot'. I thought it might be cool to post a blog of me doing ballet ballet poses in different locations. What do you think? Lame, kinda cool, or it's been done. Anyway, hope you all are enjoying your summer and aren't melting too much! <3

summer time!

I can't believe it's summer already! It HAS felt like summer for a bit now because of the temperature, but it is OFFICIALLY here now. Summer camp is in full swing and i am enjoying the students. I teach arts and crafts with the mini campers and workshop to the older ones. Workshop is basicly 1 1/2hrs of me teaching them choreography. I am in love with Florence (band) and am doing a contemporary/ballet piece to her 'Rabbit Heart' song. I've alway had an image of Alice in Wonderland when i listened to the song so i decided to do a cliff note version of choreography to tell the story.

The students are having fun with the piece and that is what is most important to me. If the people you choreograph for aren't enjoying what they are giving them then they won't perform it the way you want them too. I love seeing them laugh and add their imput and ideas. As a choreographer i am always feeding off the the energy from the group and will always listen to their ideas/thoughts. I hate people who get so stubborn about how they want things to go. Keeping an open flow of energy and creativity between the dancers and choreographer gives the piece more excitement and energy. It's a rewarding experience and i just love the process.

In other news, i celebrated 7yr with my booba yesterday. I couldn't be happier. :) He's such a great support system for me and my career. Even in my crazy moments he sticks by me. Love you booba, you're the best.

I REALLY need to get my butt to class. Taking

barre once a week is not going to get my butt back into shape! Next week, i'll work on getting better at that.

Hope you are well and cool!
~Sara~

Getting old.

So, just a quick post.

I'm a little embarrased becasue all i did was teach last night and at some point in the evening i must have done a funny move to hurt my back. I don't even remember doing anything dramatic! I came home and the pain started to get a little worse. As Irolled overi had awful pain. It's in the upper part of my back and travels along the side of my rib cage. Here i am being lazy and resting my body and i manange to hurt myself. Kind of ironic. I'm hoping it's not serious because at this point standing, sitting, and laying down all hurt. Thank goodness for my lovely booba who bought me Bengay. It's the only thing that i numbing the pain for a little bit.

June Bug.

Good morning!

I got my contract in the mail for our upcoming season last week. I can't believe it's time to sign contracts already?! We start back August 1st and I CAN'T WAIT. Don't get me wrong, i am enjoying the lazy days of waking up (whenever i want) and wondering what Netflix movie to put on. Or, the days where i sit in bed trying to decide where I am going to take an open ballet class at my leisure. It's been fun, but i miss a REAL schedule and consistant class. (and of course performing)

I have my recitals this coming Saturday and i was asked by my director to perform a short piece in them. I get really nervous performing along side the students because i know the moms and dads are seeing the product of what they are paying for. Not that my performance will do much, but it's still a solo on stage. That would make me nervous any day! It's a circus theme so i bought myself a hula hoop and will do my best to fake some hula tricks. I have attempted a few 'tricks' (by tricks i mean throwing it in the air) already and when i'm not dropping it or hitting myself it looks pretty ok. Seeing my students on stage will give me the most satisfaction. Their progress over a span of a school year is amazing. I'm like a proud mama seeing how far they have come. Teaching gives me such a full feeling. Giving back what was given to me.

Today is another lazy day followed by my last Monday teaching. There will be some hard drilling of their dances to make sure they are ready for the stage! Hopefully a few open ballet classes this week so i don't pull anything when i prance with a hula hoop on stage Saturday! :)

My best to you all.
Do something you love, and do it with all your heart today.
~Sara~

Good Morning!

A photo I took a few months ago.

I'm sitting here enjoying my french pressed coffee on a lovely cool spring morning. We just got over a mini pre-summer heat wave that really made me feel lazy. I did manage to take a ballet class at our studio with the students in NO air conditioning. Even though I was dripping in sweat before tendus, I felt good about the class and was nice to take a smaller class . It's been a while since we've had consistant class/rehearsal and i can feel my muscles having to work a lot harder to remember certain positions. Technique seems the first element to go when you don't dance everyday!

We are still on our layoff until the beginning of August and i am trying to keep myself occupied with recital stuff and get at least two classes in a week. I wish I could take class everyday, but money becomes such a huge issue. My boyfriend and i have a few weddings to shoot and we already had one a few weeks ago. The money from that really helps me and i usually set a side a chunk of it for open classes/gas money to drive to the studio.

I'm feeling positive and trying to keep that way going into the next season. We are getting a bunch of new dancers and from what i heard they are pretty good. I hate competition, but i can't help but feel that i will lose parts if i don't push a little. It's an awful insecurity that i'm sure other dancers share. I want to go into next season in the best shape i can so i can show my director that i am committed and serious about improving. It's time tostep my game up!

Summer is around the corner and wonderful opportunities are lining up. I'm ready!

My best to you all,
~Sara~

That's a wrap.(for now)

I've been behind on the posts and i apologize for that. As i had mentioned before in previous posts I have been working on a pas that was performed last night at an award show for arts. I was able to walk away pretty pleased with how it went.

The stage was a bit small and the floor was a little slippery since we didn't bring our floor, but we made it work. It felt really good to be on that stage in front of all those supporters of the arts. I want to show them who we are and what we do. We are a small company and not a lot of people know of us. People were coming up to us saying that they have never heard of us before and they wish they would have. It was nice to network and finally have some possible new fans!

It was such an honor getting to perform that pas. It's so beautiful and full of moments that you can really connect to. I hope in future i will be able to do it on a bigger stage. One can only hope right?

I just feel really pleased in general. I have such a peaceful feeling in my heart knowing that i'm doing exactly what i've always dreamed about. This is who i am through and through.
~Sara~

A show!

So, here i am enjoying my lazy time off when i get an email from my director. She asked me if i would be willing to do a pas de deux for an award ceremony our company was asked to be in. I am so excited because i have been wanting to do this pas from Eclipse since i first saw the ballet. It's more of a contemporary piece and the music/movement is just beautiful. I'm honored to be asked. I will get to perform the piece on stage in Atlantic City!!

Today was only my second day of rehearsal....and second day back to ballet. I am sore, but content. We finished learning the choreography today but i still have a bit to get back in shape. I missed ballet. It has only about a month too! I can't wait!!

~Sara~